Friday, October 14, 2011

Re: So funny...

'Brazen truth encapsulated in love!'  

Thanks for the third time tonight, Mitch!  You've made my day!  You've made my month, my year!  You've made my life by being the kind of person that understands consciousness!  Love, Hutch

On Fri, Oct 14, 2011 at 3:59 PM, MITCHELL RENNER <> wrote:

Yes, the Arthurian myth is to be the inspiration for some of my electronic music this next couple years or so, as powerful as that myth is. Hopefully I will translate it into prose in my new website as well; I am zeroing in on the URL for it... I promise this will be the place where I am confident your work, Hutch, can be placed, and have a wide impact. It is less corporate-minded, and more artistic. It is something to stand the test of time and the vagarity of cyberspace, to give people what is needed - brazen truth encapsulated in love.

Date: Sat, 1 Oct 2011 10:30:45 +0930

Subject: Re: So funny...


Every experience is valuable!  I've done things far worse than you, Mitch!  But, 'The road of excess leads to the 'Palace of Wisdom!'  We are wiser for...

The Grail Castle myth is important, as beside the first secular myth teaching humility, learning that big lesson!  The duty of a knight (overcoming fear and anger).

When Parsifal (or whichever 'night' I forget?), was allowed back in the Grail Castle (after spending a life of learning: saving damsels in distress and slewing dragons).  When back in he noticed that someone was suffering.  So, instead of ignoring it (being oblivious to other's in pain) as he had the first time, he didn't make the same mistake twice.  He inquired of the suffering person, 'What ails thee, Uncle?'

On Sat, Oct 1, 2011 at 10:20 AM, MITCHELL RENNER <> wrote:

Good advice!

Overcoming the 'I' involves 'knowing thyself', all the strengths and weaknesses, being aware.

Sometimes we grow to comfortable with our weaknesses and let them sometimes get the best of us.

It made me think of what is 'reason' and what is 'excuse'. My intention was partly to explain that I was literally 'braindead' early this week due to an encounter over the weekend, which I'm not really proud of and won't get into the details of, other than to say I was lying face down in the gutter at 4 am in urban Chicago, unsure of where my friend's apartment was, a Kafka-esque nightmare of my own making. Every reason is an excuse for mistakes made, and every excuse is also a reason. The only difference being intention. The important thing is that we are open to questioning our own motivations. But there is also the matter of how far one is willing to go with such self-interrogation. Few are willing to attempt to strip the ego bare of all conditioning, arriving at some understanding of 'emptiness'. Along such lines, there is the work 'Myth of Sisyphus' by Albert Camus, who summarizes life's experience as the ultimate 'absurdity' of existence, written during the early years of World War II. In an offhand way, it tries to justify or excuse the behavior of millions of people slaughtering each other on the battlefield.

This moment of clarity, where the mind is devoid of unconscious impulse, does not happen suddenly. I like to think that it arrives in steady waves, flashes, like the tide coming in, for those who dare to wade further out from the safe shores of familiarity. Each new, larger, surmounting crest of awakening presents its own set of new challenges that the ego tries to adjust to and assert stability against. The ego cannot be let go of completely, in one sudden moment; it would lead to psychosis for the unprepared, which includes me. Is this an excuse? No, we are not judged ultimately by one act or another, although each act contributes to our own suffering or enlightenment. 'Judged' is not the best word, anyway; there is no judgment, only consequences.

I thought about how the most celebrated icons of humanity were all too human, and also succumbed to the worst of their own temptations. Extremists use the fallibility of humankind to justify harsh measures of controlling individuals and society. Of course we must reprove our basest instincts and our worst behavior, just as we should celebrate our greatest efforts and transcending acts against impulsive nature. We cannot expect change without the ability to scrutinize and accept criticism, nor without putting effort into our lifelong goals and dreams. The carrot or the stick? One of the oldest metaphors in the book. At some point, we need neither, if we are fortunate to be so wise.

It also reminds me of a comment by John Cage, that every single thing that was put into a work 'mattered'. This coming from a man who at the same time suggested his work was 'meaningless'. Therein lies the koan of perceptible reality. The question is, what do we do with the time we are given, which I laugh to say, was uttered by Tolkien's wizard character Gandalf in the Lord of the Rings trilogy. But beyond this, what do we see, in what we have done.

Carelessness in some cases is inexcusable; we expect ourselves to rise above our conditions, and accept certain responsibilities in life. To some artists, responsibilities can seem like the walls of a prison cell. We must ask ourselves what we are responsible for, and work together to come to some mutual agreements, as to how life should be ordered and, in turn, disordered. Too much freedom in the same sense can serve as one's own prison.

Please excuse my philosophical banter and recklessness. I wish to destroy the walls of unconsciousness and open the mind to limitless possibility. In the process, sometimes like Icarus, I get to close to the flickering flames of warm temptation. Our fabricated wax wings melt away we fall to the ground and die a little bit. And then we're placed back into the maze, seeking a way 'out', only, a little bit wiser the next time.

The psychological disconnect of our understanding of nature and our failure to do so, is the maze of our making. In fury of not being able to figure out some way out, sometimes we fall back on the same paths we once walked before, exulting in our own sense of security in familiarization, only to realize later, the same traps that had been set are still there, about to apprehend us. How much of this maze have we explored? How much is enough? It isn't just a maze of barren walls and tunnels, but a maze of every single living experience that can be known. It's quite capable for a human being to be satisfied with just a simple set of experiences, and grow like a vine along those narrowly limited reaches, ever content in following the rays of the sun in some small corner of existence. I have no qualms for such. I merely question those who say 'this way is clear' when it is clearly 'trapped', those who seek to lead others down into the depths of some hellish experience. At some point I must learn to let go, but moreso, as Hutch teaches, 'to teach'. I may not know the way out, but I know of a greater expanse of freedom that can be attained.

At some point, I ask myself, do I want this for myself, simply, or do I acknowledge others, that we are all one and the same? The Theravadan and Mayahana Buddhists seem to disagree on this point, fundamentally. One waits to help others out into the sea, to presumably reach the 'other shore'; the other goes there alone. Is the Theravadan's path just 'romantic' love?

We continue wandering in that primeval forest, looking for new paths, vistas, experiences, until the place where we must give up, only to one day, return again: Nietzsche's 'eternal recurrence', and the Buddha's 'wheel of existence', or 'samsara'.


Date: Thu, 29 Sep 2011 07:04:37 +0930
Subject: Re: So funny...

What does 'sleepy' have to do with 'Reuters' and 'AP?'   A stretch by any imagination.... Does 'sleepy,' take your cognition away?  Why make some excuse?

I find when I fuck up (which is often), it's just better to come clean and admit, thus I say, 'Sorry, I fucked up!  Teach me!'  Or, an apology might be in order.  

All the time in my life now, I find myself apologizing... Why?  Because I finally realize how 'fucked up I' really am...   But, the 'I' 'I' call 'I,' is not the 'I!' 

The goal... Getting beyond the 'I!' 

And what about love...?  Not romantic love, but the kind without an object of desire.


On Thu, Sep 29, 2011 at 3:53 AM, MITCHELL RENNER <> wrote:

Oops, I feel embarrassed. Nope, Richard, AP isn't owned by Reuters. I was pretty sleepy last night. Thanks for the catch.

Date: Wed, 28 Sep 2011 15:33:11 +0930
Subject: Re: So funny...CC:;;;;;;;;;;;;

Corpos. anymore, not countries.  The corpos., control the politicians that do the 'dirty work.'  


On Wed, Sep 28, 2011 at 1:19 PM, MITCHELL RENNER <> wrote:
Reuters also owns AP...
I've heard that the Rothschild family 'controls' Reuters but I've never followed up on that claim.

Wouldn't surprise me. If you can't beat them... buy them out.


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